memories

so several others have had this on their blogs, so i thought i'd join in! have at it...

Here are the directions:
1. As a comment on my blog, leave one memory that you and I had together. It doesn't matter if you knew me a little or a lot, anything you remember!
2. Next, re-post these instructions on your blog and see how many people leave a memory about you.
It's actually pretty funny to see the responses. If you leave a memory about me, I'll assume you're playing the game and I'll come to your blog and leave one about you. If you don't want to play on your blog, or if you don't have a blog, I'll leave my memory of you in my comments.

good cheese comes from happy cows...

and happy cows come from california. good thing that's where i live!



anyway, to make up for the last post, (thankyou everyone for your comments) i figured i'd put up a few pics of what i see not necessarily on a daily basis, but often enough. these pics are from the beach at mugu rock. in all honesty, life is really good right now, despite what i mentioned previously. i am lucky to have a great job with a lot of flexibility. i have an amazing roommate who i get along with really well. millie is the cutest cat in the world. i love my apartment. camarillo has better weather than oxnard, so i see the sun a lot more than i did last year. and the beautiful scenery below is less than 10 minutes away. so there you have it. life is good. la vie est belle. please don't think i'm going into a major depression, just because i'm trying to figure out what the next step in my life is. i love life, and i don't think i would do things any differently than i have if i was given the chance. thankyou to all my friends and family, cause i love ya'll!!




p.s. i kinda look like i may or may not be a little drunk in this photo. but i wasn't. i was in the middle of blinking. true story.

there comes a time...

i stole this from jessie, but i figure it's a good description of what i'm trying to tell myself right now. i've been thinking about a few things, but it's hard to put my thoughts into words. i guess i've been thinking a lot about what i want from life and why certain things i want aren't happening. there is no real explanation for it, but i'm trying to not think about the drama and focus on the good things. drama is so totally overrated. i don't really understand why some things in life have to be so complicated. i look around and things seem to happen so easily for other people. i see my dreams coming true for just about everyone else i know, and yet, nothing for me. this may sound selfish, but when will it be my time? they say that you are the one who makes your dreams come true. but i don't entirely agree with that. i mean, i do to a certain point, i agree that you have to work hard to get what you want, and if you're lazy about it, you may just not get it. but what if you're working your behind off, and nothing happens? you're stuck. i hate being stuck. in fact, i think it's one of the worst feelings in the world. does that mean that it is time to let go of that dream? i hope not, because i don't think i'll ever be able to let go of it. and if it never happens, it will just be a long life of trying to reach something that is unreachable. i know i'm supposed to have faith. and patience. and humility. and all those wonderful things. but should there come a time when you have to let go of the thing that you are trying to be patient for? i know i'm making this really general, so it may not make sense. but i guess what i'm trying to say is that i'm trying to stay focused and i'm trying to stay hopeful, and i'll keep trying but it gets to be so hard sometimes. sorry for pity party post, but i had to get that out. i'm letting go of the drama, and surrounding myself with happiness...

independence day in santa barbara

we all decided to go see the fireworks in santa barbara for the 4th. here are some pics from the fun. the fireworks were right on the beach, next to the wharf. there's a fire in goleta, so we also got the bonus of breathing the ash in the air. but it made for an interesting sunset. as you can see, there were close to a billion people there. ok, maybe not exactly that many, but almost. :) we decided on fish and chips for dinner from the wharf, not knowing that they literally meant chips, not fries. but it was still ok. we dug a trench in the sand to lay in. it turned out to be an amazing show!

m.a.s.h.

so i'm a little slow getting pictures on here... these are from memorial day. me and some of my friends went hiking to the m.a.s.h. filming site in malibu canyon. look like korea to you? :)